Stop loving someone?

If you love someone, can you stop? Can you flush those precious emotions away and treat the person as a friend at your own will. That is, for practical reasons...Maybe that person doesn't feel the same way (anymore), or it interferes with your other goals in life. It's just when the brain needs to protect the heart.

If we think we can, it might be that we are fooling ourselves and only pushing those emotions out of site. So, as long as you continue to run in to that person those feelings could burst out at any moment. The body is at the mercy of the heart but the false feeling of control might empower us.

Maybe the mind can control the heart, or at least the heart can listen to reason. In that case, we're not as helpless as we want to believe when we fall in love. However, this control is the villain of romance, depriving us of the essential feeling of being human while devaluing any reason to live.

It might be different for everyone, but I certainly don't have the answer to this one....

polite smile

I was out today running some errands, and I noticed how we smile a lot, politely to show that we are satisfied customers. We're so happy to strangers, because being optimistic is a social necessity. If we don't smile, either they did something wrong, we're just having a bad day, or we're just jerks. But when that person you bought a sandwich from notices it, it does feel pretty good when a person cares to ask how you're doing.

Sure, I got a little caring since I paid a little money. Sometimes you can't even expect that much from a friend, even though you'd expect them to. People are just so into themselves and their own problems that they wouldn't even notice. That's pretty sad to those who believe in working together and helping each other out of the big muddy ditches that come in life.

I think most people genuinely care at one point in their lives, until someone takes advantage of them. After that, some continue the cycle by taking advantage of other people while making endless excuses. Most create this elaborate illusion where they convince themselves of being good people while suppressing their newfound selfishness. Most of the good they do is superficial or even Machiavellian. Finally, there are a few people learn how to care about others but protect themselves at the same time. And all the hope in this crazy world relies on them.

Faulty logic

So it seems like the good ones are already taken. ...

Let me do a pseudomathematical proof:

assume "everyoneIKnow" !=liars (!= means not equal)
goodOne is a subset of {guys, girls}
me = goodOne (according to everyoneIKnow)
me != taken
hence, goodOnes NOT ALWAYS taken

Therefore, there's a good one that's not yet taken.
Now how do I triangulate her whereabouts?

juicy secret

A secret: a few words with such great power. You can imagine the traumatic emotional fallout triggered just by opening your mouth. We share secrets to show our trust and seal bonds with the people we care about. We give the other person the means to hurt us later while getting the means to hurt them. In that process, we can feel better that we aren't as crazy as we might have thought and we can feel assured that this friendship/relationship cannot easily dissapear.

Someone left me a secret, and I have kept it hidden away. After fights and the trauma she caused me, I could have unleashed it, yet I didn't. We aren't friends anymore, and now I wish she had never had told me it. I have a way to hurt her, but I have no reason to. I wish I could forget it, but I can't imagine why she gave me that possibility in the first place. Maybe she knew I would never tell anyone. Well, I never have, and never will.

saying goodbye

Whenever people part ways, there is a chance that they will never meet again. It's especially scary when breaking a deep connection and suddenly return to the lonely world again. Sooner or later, the world will crash on us again, and we have to take care of our own world without help from others.

Maybe if you give that person a piece of you, than he or she will more likely try to come back to you again. Tell the person one of your darkest secrets, or an endless story in your life. Give a screenname, or phonenumber to think of you again. Everytime, you give a different reason to come back to you and hope that person will.

But there is always that chance that whether unintentionally or deliberately, that person never returns, and you've lost that piece forever. Hopefully, it was something you could afford to lose.